Saying Goodbye to a Gloomy Past and Hello to a Bright Future
Today a good-bye and a welcome chapter to my life. While the good-bye was bittersweet, it also showed me I have completed something larger than me, and it has a ripple effect over the course of many lives. The welcome will bring new adventures, stronger bonds, and new challenges will come, whether I am ready or not.
A single choice to take the Catalyst Coaching Intensive has changed my entire perspective of life and the people in my life. I never felt as though I fit into my life, and in this course, I felt like I was with family. Every Sunday was my time to spend with my family, learning something new about me through their experiences, words and encouragement.
I went into this experience with no expectations because I honestly had no idea where I was in this place called life. I had actually reached a point of being done with everything because anxiety and depression had yet again consumed my life. I lost my spark for life, leaving me feeling purposeless.
I spent much of my time stuck on one question in the first class. The question, “What is your passion?” consumed me. Since all of my first thoughts were about everything outside of me, I was plagued by thoughts and questions wondering who the heck I am. As I started to work though that thought, I was hit yet again when asked in another class what two words would I have on my tombstone? All I could see in my mind was “sad and lonely." That terrified me.
Before taking the Catalyst Coaching Intensive, I thought I had to stay in the place I had been. I thought my past had to define who I am in the present. In the intensive, I learned I chose to stay in past and who I was or wasn’t at that time. I learned I have the choice to decide if I stay in that place, or to slide off the winter coat of shame, guilt and pain I have been carrying for so many years. I have the choice to decide to put on a new windbreaker to shield me from the unwanted bad habits I have carried for so long and now lighten my load as I look at life in a new way.
Today, as I ponder my sixteen weeks in the intensive, the friendships and the struggles; I can say now, right here, I view my passion as my life and what I will make of it going forward. My passion is me and developing skills to help others to develop their passion and best self.
I now see my tombstone as saying “Always Growing.”
To be secluded is to be stagnant and passive in life.
I will not go back and be weighed down. Will all this change be easy? Heck no! It will take consistent mindfulness to move forward, but I know I have the bond of my fellow Catalysts to help me along the way. For that, I’m grateful. I’m also looking forward to my next chapters in a way I never have before, and that excites me to no end.
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